Brain freeze ....

Ughhhh... I am trying to write my Letter of Intent for McMaster's Child Life Program... and I just.. can't... seem... to ... get ... my ... point ... across... in ... any.. fluid... manner!
Let me see - My intent is to come to your school and have you teach me. Good? Good!
I was wondering if it is hard because I really don't want to go or because I want to go so bad. The mere fact that I can ask myself that question leads me to thinking that I really, really, really do not know what I want to do at this point. So, best to suffer through this and have the option if I ever do come to a peaceful decision.
I am sure that it does not help that I was up till 3:30AM working a casino.

The amount of money that I handled was beyond my little monetary world. Treesa and I looked at each other as we were cashing out at the end of the night and laughed ... eyes red and blood-shot and blank. This rush comes as the tables close and you are pretty much counting chips and money (thousands) constantly for what seemed like a short eternity ... my head hurt.

These are my thoughts from the week:

There is a really popular country song called "Jesus take the wheel" . It is a beautiful song and has a great message about letting go and trusting God. My thought came after she says she just took her hands of the wheel as she was spinning out of control!?!?! That does not make sense ... no ... no sense at all unless you are suicidal! We would never do that. But we do that sometimes in life don't we ... we just throw our hands up and give in. I am still thinking on it but I think that God would want us to just try ... use that knowledge we learned in driver's ed : )

Thought number two (imagine if you really only had two thoughts a week!)
Those books on shopoholics got me thinking about how we see "-oholics". Everyone seems to have one (I have many!) and they no longer seem to carry a negative air about them. We seem to be so proud of ourselves for making that first step of identifying that we have a problem that we seem to have forgotten that the whole reason for that step was to take the next step towards overcoming that problem. And what about the people who really do suffer because of addictions ... the mental health field is going to have to keep creating new terms to identify those whose daily functioning is truly affected by addictions. Maybe that could be my job ... I seem to like making up words ; )

Okay, Okay .... now that my brain is thawed I will return to conveying intent!