My groupies...

I am getting better at this recital thing ... I had my second hip-hop recital on Sunday and I did not feel AS nauseous as my first one. Melissa, Erin, Krista, Carrie, and Rylan all came out to ... well my gut feeling is that they came out for a good laugh ... but I know that they came to show me that they are proud of how I am living. And I would say my five groupies far outweighed all the other ladies husbands... and were much better dancers. Still there was a lot of laughter! What more joy could be had than that that flows from standing in front of five of your favorite people teaching them a hip-hop move ... heeeeee he fabulous ... they did marvelous but it made me realize that I have come a lot farther than I thought!

It feels like spring is coming and it is incredible how that is lightening my little heart ... it is time. I took Tayah for a walk yesterday and she sang to herself the whole time ... and every once in awhile would crane her head around to make sure that it was not the wind pushing her and give me a big smile.

AND ... I had my first official date yesterday. No a date is not a big deal, but this date was no matter how I looked at it. I think that it was important for me to just do it, but I have been thinking if I really want that in my life right now. I am happy (yes, I have moments, okay lots of moments, but there are more happy ones than sad) ... why mess with that!?! Although I thought that I might just puke a little, thought of a million different ways I could cancel without making the poor guy feel bad, required a million pep talks from my friends, worked out so hard that I could not afford to worry about anything but breathing till 45mins before I had to leave ... I survived ... (I did drive directly to Kirst's and collapse after but at least I kept it togeather in his presence!) and it was not bad at all ... a very sweet guy ... so maybe this dating thing won't kill my spirit ... I am just saying maybe ... that is all you get!

Hmmmmm ... I am so content this morning.