Where is she?

Must have been around October that my heart was shifted by meeting a lady in the hot-tub. I wrote this:

I sat in the hot tub with a lady living with cancer tonight. She was swimming with her girlfriend. I saw that she was going through treatment and was impressed that she was out there giving it her best – swimming away. She had incredible brown eyes that shone life and determination. She was so happy to share how she is overcoming. She told me that the greatest thing that she has learned is that you can live, like really live, with cancer. She compared it to a child, sometimes it has tantrums and demands your attention, but there are also those times when it is sleeping or playing peacefully by itself. I could really relate to that. As I started my swim I was in so much pain – but I knew that if I swam through it, the pain would disappear – then I forget it was so bad in the first place and then - I was a fish!

Why does it take so much before we see the power of sharing our stories, our lessons, our victories, and failures? It seems like everyone walks around pretending that they have got it sorted out and don’t have anything they need to learn from others. That got me thinking about lessons. Sometimes, like this week, I just feel like – that is it God I can not take one more lesson. But I realized, that is because I allow myself to feel wrong and dumb for not already knowing, instead of being thankful that I now know. Would it not be better to celebrate all the lessons I have learned and be open to others as they come? Learning takes time. Learning can be so hard, but the feeling that comes when you finally “get” something is so … empowering.

She was going to spend the winter in Mexico. I have been looking for her every week since spring snuck into our lives. Where is she?

The grass is green!!! I just want to walk around in it in my bare feet ... the tickles!