Just another manic Monday ...

So there I am sitting on the stool at my island singing "Just another manic Monday" laughing at how ironic it was that it was almost Monday but sadly it was Sunday ... But heck if I wanted to sing manic Monday on Sunday out-loud to myself, darnet I was going to do it. I thought this was HILARIOUS.
Then we have the time that I called my sister in the middle of the night in Ireland to confess a life-crushing revelation I had while watching a movie with my brother that all I had ever thought about my whole life was money ... And how could someone be so awful ... And how could I make her understand what a horrible thing this was ... I continued to explain to her that I knew it was not my fault ... That it was likely my growing up with my mom being stressed about money and my dad controlling with money ... But this was life altering to me ... And then like all my other crazy trips ... The person I was talking to would say one thing and then I would totally come out of it ... My sister kindly reminded me that I was always broke because I liked to spend money so much ... And I did not start obsessing about it till I started planning for my wedding.
Then there was the revelation I had with my mom where I was trying to convince her that I was going to make ssooooooooo much money after selling my rental property that I could take care of the whole family ... Extended that is. This crazy trip ended with my mom nicely making me realize that there is inflation and that we all still have long lives ahead of us. I actually called my friend Chris one night at like 12:30 to ask him not to tell any of our friends that I was going to have money because they might treat me different and I just wanted to be Heather! Hilarious stuff really.
I also experienced some kind of moment of enlightenment ... The split second the psychiatrist came and sat down there was a brightness and an instant click and I knew I was back in reality and that I was okay and that I could now go home. This is when I proceeded to tell the Psychiatrist that I loved her for bringing me back to reality ... And that is when she looked at me like "yes , yes you are loopy and went to consult with the oncologist.
Then we had yesterday where my mind was so distractable it took me from 6:30 to 8:30 to get to my book club, with a map. Every time the girls would call I would turn, I thought that if I just kinda started driving in the general direction of where I wanted to go that I would get their quicker than if I looked at the map. That was a little frustrating to say the least ... And all that time my oil light which has a short circuit is beeping in my face. The girls finally came out and found me.
Although It had some really scary awful moments. Being out of control of your mind is a terrifying thing. And things got scary enough for me that I knew that the mania was out of control and that I needed to see a psychiatrist for meds. Lying in the psych room at emerg was one of the most terrifying moments of my life. Wondering if maybe you really have gone crazy and are going to have a mental illness to deal with.
So here I am still in the middle of all this with 5 more days of these pills. Only 5 more days ... Boy am I looking forward to a "normal" mind.
Hey this is my hundredth blog ... wowzers Penny (I LOVED inspector Gadget!)