Today ...
My body said in pain no more radiation.
The doctor said stop.
They cancelled my treatment tomorrow and will reassess on monday.
I got accepted to a program of 8 from 400 applicants.
Every time I got up I did not know if my leg was going to work.
I was married four years ago.
Was driven to Sylvan Lake for ice-cream and to throw my engagement ring in the Lake.
My wedding ring is no longer in my house.
My diamond is my grandma's diamond again.
Scared myself I was so manic.
Had a million life altering revelations.
Was the longest most significant day of my life.
Have lost power in my hands.
Was divine.
Has to be over.
- H
- I am doing my best to find the good things in my life and cherish them. I love deeply. I laugh hard (so hard I sometimes snort). I still dream and believe that dreams are meant to be followed. I try to depend on God. I have so much to learn. I hope.
3 comments:
My Darlin Heather
I read your blog each day and always fight the tears. I know you do not want us to be sad for you but it is so hard to stay positive. HOW DO YOU DO IT!!!!!!
Just know I love you. If you need anything, please call.
Your friend
K8
What a day....It will be over in 13 minutes. Will I throw my ring in a lake? Will I say "oh hey, I bought it for myself anyway, what difference does it make?" Will I remember the anniversary every year? I'll just ask you...you are the one who shoulders all the pain, and then shares your life with those coming behind you so they know they are not alone and that they will survive, and it will be a little easier, knowing the work has been done before. It's called "breaking trail" when you are skiing in fresh powder, and I swear to god I will break trail for you one day. You continue to be my hero.
Love you,
The Valiant Queen
7 more minutes....
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