Blessings

I can't help but reflect on the past year at this point. What a year ... I never imagined one person could experience such extremes in such a short period. Tonight I met with a wonderful, beautiful woman I met dragon-boating on the Children's Wish Team last spring and summer - Mary. As we sat over tea (and hot apple juice ... only you Mary) and laughed I just felt so ... very blessed. I don't think I have ever used so many cliches in my life as I have in the past while ... they seem to be so much more real to me. Anyway ... there is really no other way to describe it. So many truly beautiful, inspiring, loving people have come into my life ... because Mike left. I never would have dragon-boated, never would have traveled, never ..., never ... so many things. Relationships really are what sustain us aren't they. Without them who are we? Can you call yourself kind if there is no one to bestow your kindness upon? My heart is just smiling ... I feel very loved.

Kind of unrelated. Is it harder for everyone else to give love than receive it, or is it me?

Again unrelated but has been swirling in my mind. How do we tell the difference between fear and our consciences/gut/intuition? I do not want to be governed by fear, yet I want to be a good keeper of my heart ... hmmm

I actually made it to Linda's last night without stopping for ice-cream ... but broke down and made cookie dough ... Thanks for letting me do what needed to be done girls! It was not pretty though ... Heather sitting on the counter with a HUGE bowl (where does one get such huge bowls Linda?) of cookie dough and a HUGE spoon ... trying to figure it all out ... never do though - I wonder if I will ever stop trying? Once I felt sick enough to stop I curled up beside Krista and she played with my hair ( I lifted her hand and stuck it on my head ... nice eh). Humans need touch ... I miss that.

Off to see more of my blessings up North for the weekend ... so you will all have a nice little break from the mess that are my thoughts! I hope you feel as blessed as I do tonight!

Just received a CD of all my sisters Christmas pictures ... this progression made me laugh ... Chris I know you will appreciate it! I lied ... could not get it to work! ; (