Our bodies are amazing. So many millions of things going right all the time that we never notice ... until one goes awry.
One of the unexpected and quite baffling side-effects as of late has been that my hands are cramping ... holding chop-sticks at the market yesterday was a gong-show. Brushing my teeth takes 10 minutes as I have to stop and knead my hands back into a functioning state every 10 seconds.
Got me thinking about how life is like this. In any given second there are a million things going right. Yet, our attention is usually on what is going wrong. I get that this makes sense ... that what goes wrong requires our immediate attention and energy and all of that. I do wonder though how our view on life would differ if we spent even a little extra time to pay attention to all that is good and right and beautiful in our little worlds. There was a lot of good and right and beautiful today ... Some beautiful singing birds have taken up a purch on the building being framed 5 feet from my window ... and it sounded like I was playing a nature CD in my place. The weather was perfect. All the trees are blooming and showering their scent upon us. Lilacs are out. My brother was home when I stopped by Mom's and we cooked dinner together and visited which does not happen often. And on and on I could go!
General update - My headache eased considerably once they doubled the steroids. My numb-bum is still numb but the steroids also seem to be minimizing that.
Overall, I am fatigued and every muscle in my body feels like it has just completed its own little marathon. My mood is better though ... I think ... you may have to query those around me on that one but I feel less irritable and grumpy.
Still not the greatest party to be around. I completely fell asleep at Connie's fabulous barbecue twice last night ... right in the middle of fabulously animated conversation ... yes a little embarrassing! Connie did give me a pillow though so really I am not all to blame. Mmmmmmm what a yummy party in my tummy that was!
Those dragon-boat friends make my heart smile a very big and happy smile!
And ... your comments ... they overwhelm me ... thank you for being my witnesses ... thank you for sharing your hearts ... thank you for the grace that you see me with.
Okay you can thank my cramping hands that this entry, which very easily could have been a "coffee" length entry, has to end : )
4 comments:
KneuroKnut, an old college friend sent me your blog link. I have been lurking a little bit, but wanted to finally introduce myself. I can relate to your physical pain somewhat, although mine stems from a car accident. I also know how much of an inner battle it can be to try and keep your soul alive when all you want to do is curl up into a little ball and hide from the world and numb the pain. You write beautifully, poetically... Your attitude is inspiring, and you have a new fan.
Hello my little Sleepy Head:
It is all Connie's fault. She had no business giving you a pillow! How can you be expected to stay awake when you have a lucious, plump pillow to lay your head on. Fear not, you always came wide awake to particiapte in the conversation when it really mattered. We care not if you sleep or wake, we love you all the same.
I'm glad the headaches are somewhat under control. As for the cramping hands, I am more than happy to offer hand massage at any time.
How is your lovley blue sweater? Did it survive the party?
I am taking your advise and looking for and enjoying all the good things in my life. You are one of my favorite WONDERFUL things to enjoy. I love your writings.
I even stopped to smell the lilac this morning. I did get a few strange looks. Too bad those people don't know our Heather. They could have enjoyed that beautiful scent.
No matter how bad we are feeling, you gotta know that every day above ground is a good day!
LOL & Hugs
K8:)
Hey you! Okay, cramping hands, cramping hands blah de blah...you have a perfectly good mouth which can hold a perfectly good pencil or something and you can learn a new skill called "Mouth typing" to keep us all informed here! I have "Mexican Facial Expression Interpreter" on my resume, "Mouth Typer" will be fine on yours!
Love you,
t.
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