It is nothing. I am sure that it is nothing. It is going to go away. It will go away. I am not really doing radiation like other people do radiation. I am just going to the hospital for a little lay-down once a day. Nothing really. Don't feel anything while I am laying there. I am exhausted but who isn't? Why are they making such a big deal about a little numbness ... this was inevitable right?
Hey guys? Hey wait a minute ... why are we all of the sudden being so serious?
Why are we all of the sudden quadrupling meds that we wanted to keep low?
Hey guys ... I feel a little out of the loop here.
What happened to no worries.
Why didn't I know that I was supposed to be worrying?
Hello?
Permanent damage?
The swelling will just keep getting worse? I am sure you said it would ease up ... are you sure?
I thought that it was just the tumor ... all of me?
I need more guidelines ... I need more rules ... How do I take care of myself? How am I supposed to know what is best?
- H
- I am doing my best to find the good things in my life and cherish them. I love deeply. I laugh hard (so hard I sometimes snort). I still dream and believe that dreams are meant to be followed. I try to depend on God. I have so much to learn. I hope.
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I am calling you.
I remember it being very frustrating
dealing with the doctors and staff at Tom Baker. Not because they were not wonderful, helpful and treated Clint with special care but because of what they didn't tell us or the strange excange of glances.
This was our life. Did they think we didn't want to know what the hell was going on. (still a little bitter????).
We sure could use a little good news today............
Has Queen L got her hot tub in yet? Just go there sit in the rain, drink lots of wine and soak the pain away.
Sending lots of love and hugs.
K8
I know how frustrating it must be for you Heather, but remember it's frustrating for the staff at the TB too because they don't know the answers. I'm not making excuses for them or calling them imcompetent or anything like that because they ARE the best at what they do, but the human body is a mysterious thing. It quite often doesn't do exactly what we think it should when we think it should do it.
I wish I had all the answers to all your questions. But I don't and never will. I do know that you have an amazing group of loyal and genuine friends and I think they hold more healing for you than the staff at TB. So take them up on their offers of hot tubs, ice cream (forget about your cholesterol for just now) and love.
If you need a reminder on how much you are loved just go back and re read some comments over the past couple weeks (or months), re read some of the cards on your kitchen counter or call me and feel the love!
D
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