I looked ...

I googled the steroids I am on ...
I looked at the side effects ...
I looked at the average starting dose ... and now know that I am on twelve times that.
I know now what they are doing to my body ...
I am full of radiation.
I am full of poison.
I want off.
I should not have looked.
Machine was broken today ... treatment cancelled ... still pain is worse again today.
I am done now ... all done.
This is not okay anymore.
I want to be done now.
Seven more days seems like forever.
I just want to sleep ... have to wait two more hours to take more poison ... and then my brain will be more wired ... and sleep will be further ...
I WANT TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grandpa did great ... in great spirits and ready to get home! Thank goodness.