The butterfly has butterflies ...

I will leave for Cancun tomorrow afternoon and then fly out in the morning on Wednesday. I am still trying to figure out why but I am anxious about coming home. I don´t think that I was really close to myself after radiation until last week. I am not sure if this is a good thing or not. Everything was so clear to me during that time ... and it was filled with such rich times with the people that fill my life with joy and love. I guess that when we go through an experience like I did we have to sort through it over time and try and hold on the the good lessons and changes and try to forget the bad parts. I definitely feel a bit more rested after this time ... but my heart and my body still have some healing to do before they are strong again. So looking forward to seeing all of you soon. Is it silly to miss your friends when you have only been gone two weeks? I guess that just testifies to what great friends you all are.