This week has hard. Sometimes it is hard to see the end when you are in the middle. It can slip your mind why you have moved so far away from your family and friends. You can forget why you are writing a 10 page paper on the inner group dynamics of kid nation. You can get lost in the theory and the jargon. You can eat a lot, A LOT, of ice-cream because you feel a hole. If you are not careful, if you forget to take the time to look into your deep heart, you can forget why.
How often are we headed down a path and forget to look up. A couple of weeks ago I was walking home with my ipod on and a guy on his bike braked right in front of me. He looked me in the eye and said with a mean spirit "Do you always walk with your head down?" I was so mad at his attitude that I fumed all the way home, mumbling to myself smart comebacks. I even told my classmates the next day. But it has made me notice that I do walk with my head down often. Maybe it is because I trip so often, maybe it is because I am avoiding people. I don't want to be that person. I do not want to miss the beauty that is in front of me. I do not want to forget why I am here. I do not want to loose my passion in the profession that I am dressing in. I want to be the one that is not afraid to look them in the eyes, the one that is not scared of the pain in their deep heart. But sometimes I look down, sometimes I am even too scared to look myself in the eye.
- H
- I am doing my best to find the good things in my life and cherish them. I love deeply. I laugh hard (so hard I sometimes snort). I still dream and believe that dreams are meant to be followed. I try to depend on God. I have so much to learn. I hope.
3 comments:
Looking down isn't such a bad thing. Maybe you see a lot that everyone with thier heads up miss. Maybe there are times that it is just best to hold your head down, stay strong and continue forward. Holding your head up is sometimes too much to ask. Holding your head up can be extremely disapointing. Walk however you feel like. You're walking and that is a gift in and of itself. We love you and miss you tremendously, head up, head down, head sideways...just glad you have your head and it is here pouring out your life's song.
xxx
Just remember that everytime your gorgeous head is up, you keep meeting gorgeous people! Although getting run over on the bike path is an interesting way to meet others as well.....whatever floats your boat girl!
love you, gift still not in the mail, keep looking for it!
Good things can happen when you walk with your head down. You might find a lucky penny. I think they are pennies from heaven. When ever I see one I think it is my sister Bobby or my Bear Clint just letting me know I am loved and being watched over......
Some days you just have to do your own thing....Was the biker cute? You should have turned on the old sweet pea charm, you could have had him eating out of your hand in no time. Miss you. Big Hugs XOXO K8
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