And the little tears did fall ...

I have been thinking a lot about Mike lately after his emails. And with my first date with Wilbert tonight and all the thoughts and fears that brings. I sat in my car last night and cried. I cried for what was let go of with Mike ... what I still believe would have been a beautiful life. I cried for how he changed the shape of my heart ... that no matter how much work I put into it or how hard people love me ... It will never be like it was ... I will always be a little harder for me to trust ... I will always be weary of musicians who have no real plan for what they want to do with their life and are planning to go to school ... Which is Wilbert.
Of course eh, but we are going to just take it one date at a time and this should be a good one. We are going to the Calgary Tower for 8 and will have a yummy yummy make your tummy funny dinner and of course dessert and should still be there to watch the fire works. Then maybe go down to the Stampede grounds ... I will still be in my fabulous black silk halter dress so we will see how I feel about that.

So last night I was just laying down giving my back a break as it gets quite sore from sitting all day and was about to get up and head to Dragon boating and then all of the sudden it was 6:30, practice had started a half hour ago and I knew that my team was going to throw me over board if I showed up. But being the dedicated and fearless little drummer girl that I am I rushed off. Once I got there I spent about ten minutes waving at the boat like an idiot ... I know I looked this way because everyone around me was looking at me like "What and idiot". Then I got smart, smarties do work, and asked some rowers to swing by my boat and tell them their drummer was there. AND ohhhhh the slack I got when I told them that I fell asleep. Them comments just flowed like a river out of their big mouths. All in good fun I think. I am still working on the calls. Did not help that Gerald was saying one thing and the boat was saying another. I will keep practicing. I get really nervous though and forget stuff! It was a beautiful night though and I am thankful that I am well enough to be doing this. I am thankful for my team. I am thankful for a group of people so loving and fun and fabulous and that we are doing this so a kid can have their dream. Remember your dream today ... dream about it ... make a step towards making it real.

Count down to Mexico - 5 sleeps baby!!!!!!!!! Then you can find me on the beach Jeeves and that will be another margarita and plate of freash tropical fruit!